A few weeks ago, I was happy. I sat under a tree, enjoying the golden light through the branches. I was rereading Carolyn See’s tragic novel, Making History, an exploration of the survival of the human spirit in the face of devastation, as literal spirits linger in the atmosphere before drifting away.

In the course of this 1991 novel, accidents shape the lives of an affluent family. Wynn Bridges, the wife of a financier and the mother of three children, has an opportunity to reconnect with Whitney, her daughter from her first marriage, when the teenage girl is seriously injured in a car accident. It takes months, but Whitney makes a full recovery. This will not be the only accident, alas, but in See’s novels joy never quite deserts her characters. Even in Golden Days, which ends with an apocalyptic event, the characters feel joy when, toothless, bald, and ill, they finally stagger down to the beach to look at the ocean.
Does anyone else see the world as Carolyn See did? She looked at both the microcosm and the macrocosm, the family and the financiers who shape the world. We don’t pretend to know all that. On our level, we try not to take too much in. There is, instead, bafflement and endurance. But then we had this wonderful, mellow, exquisite summer. The temperatures here were “normal” for the first time in years. It was a twentieth-century summer in the twenty-first century. I will remember this magical summer.
Of course the seasons change quickly. The days are already shorter, the light is wan, the grass is dry, and mottled leaves are falling. One day the Covid went away and I got up and went outside. Summer was a ghost, but fall was here.
You grab these moments for what they are.
Near the end of Making History, Wynn engages in imaginary dialogue with her close friend, Kathy, the mother of Whitney’s best friend, Tracie. It is as if Wynn is prescient, that she knows that their lives are about to change. The two women come from a similar background: they were poor and miserable in their first marriages; later, they deliberately married money.
Wynn laments, “Our youth is gone, my dear, dear friend! We haven’t lived the lives we should have! Somewhere between poverty and riches, we lost it. We’re alone. Yes! We are. When we had some good things, we didn’t recognize them. Even now, with another set of good things, I can’t feel them. You can’t feel them. Can this really be it, life? The Big Deal? This can’t really be it, this dread, this dissatisfaction, this imperfection in the midst of so-called perfection, the suffering I saw in Whitney, the indifference at the heart of the world!”
See’s characters cherish the moments of joy and connection. However, Wynn is a character in a Greek tragedy, shattered by an event so tragic that it is difficult to take it in .Now it’s up to her mostly-absent, cosmopolitan financier husband, Jerry, who isn’t used to dealing with human responsibility, and doesn’t want to step up. He will, though. He must. There’s no one else.
This beautiful summer has been a revelation to me. For a decade there has been record-breaking heat, literal “scorchers.” I thought dazedly: You mean, this is the way we used to live?
And to think we took EVERYTHING for granted! How lucky we were! And how lucky we were this summer!