you wake slowly without abruptness as though there were no line between sleep and consciousness and see the leaves variegate the woodland floor in some diagonal drift, gray skies with the smell of wetness in the air the flurries of wind sound as though your relatives were arguing again in the trees, but in truth their arguments have ceased for some stopped with earth and you remember that yesterday suddenly in a moment of consciousness you could not speak on the surface of things there was only a feeling a long grasp of memory and now that too has passed
the birds make insistencies with their cries and you wait for the water to boil to wash the dishes think of the trees that fell last night on the farm and your dog asleep in her place practicing perhaps for the longs sleep not long to come
Garrison Keillor once read a poem by Chuck Miller on The Writer’s Almanac. That’s how I rediscovered Miller’s poems. He writes about nature, his dog (rescued from a dental lab), living in a shack, and continually reminds himself why he’s an anarchist.
Miller built a rough shack in the 1980s, using egg cartons as insulation. It is nothing like Thoreau’s shack. It looks barely livable.
And I am saddened by Miller’s rough life-style. How? Why? He earned a BS in Science and Math at the University of Illinois, an MA in philosophy at the Southern Illinois University, and an MFA from The Writer’s Workshop at the University of Iowa. How could he not find a good job?
But I’m here to share my enthusiasm for his book, Northern Lights: New & Selected Poems (1994). The poem “start up the music again” especially resonates with me.
Chuck Miller and his shack.
An excerpt from “start up the music again,” by Chuck Miller
but there is a hunger for those other times when if we were more desperate for everything we were also more alive in some other way, you seek out this sense without knowing how exactly you are going about it but what is it …the memory of our lost youth… or something generational that now seems almost past for us or that once we struck out against them and made a life, at least for a while so completely different from their own
Chuck Miller, the least silent of poets, was a member of the Silent Generation. When he wasn’t writing poetry, socializing, or rabble-rousing, he was telling truths no one wanted to hear. I saw him at a poetry reading when I was a teenager, and he was very handsome, with a slightly mischievous twinkle.
On the back of the book, Miller is quoted by an editor on what he does not want to see printed on the back of the book.
“The thing I don’t want on the back of my book is a bunch of crap about my degrees, or who I studied with, or my MFA from the University of Iowa, blah-blah, particularly since I ended up absolute enemies with the Writers’ Workshop; it would be ironic, galling, and disgusting to be identified as some product or protege of theirs.”
.Sometimes Miller was dirt-poor: He writes a poem about almost taking a telemarketer job. He was desperate, but when he he saw the crowded room of miserable people, being rated, berated, or praised by a supervisor, he left. He decided he was not that desperate.
He also rages against the food stamps program. He’s been getting food stamps for years, and suddenly they change their procedure, in order, he believes, to make it more difficult for the poor and the immigrants. He is told that everyone must watch a two-hour film on what food stamps are before he gets his stamps. Miller explains that he knows what food stamps are. He has to get back to his job: he doesn’t have time for the bureaucracy.
In one poem, he writes about people with dead eyes on the bus, getting out at the supermarket which sells food that he says will kill them: dyed food with lots of additives, and cheap fruit and vegetables imported from Mexico. There is no reason why we shouldn’t be eating American fruit.
But it is the gentler poem, “the memory of our lost youth/ or something generational.” that haunts me. A snapshot fell out of a book the other day, a faded picture that won’t last much longer, ,of my husband and me in our early twenties on a picnic by the river. What makes me laugh: we wore nearly identical jeans and t-shirts (though mine is pink). We could wear the same clothe then. How sweet we were!
Cheers to Chuck Miller and his book Northern Fields, which I really love. He lived a long life, in spite of his life-style. Some people can live like that, others cannot. And he seemed to appreciate his shack and his country walks, so there was clearly joy in his life.
I discovered Chuck Miller’s poetry during a brief stint working at a hipster bookstore.
Chuck wasn’t just a local poet. His work was published in several languages.
I followed his career sporadically over the years. He was still giving interviews and poetry readings in the 2010s. Tonight I was saddened to learn that he died in 2024.
Below is a brilliant quote that defines his philosophy. And below that is his stunning poem, “In Celebration of Surviving.”
Here is a quote from an interview with Chuck.
“You see all the rottenness and corruption in the world. If you stand against that, most people sort of understand what you’re talking about, but they’ve kind of made a truce with the rottenness. Whereas, somehow I’ve never made a truce with it. So the only way I knew how to respond was to write something.” — Chuck Miller, poet (1939-2024).
And here is one of his poems.
“In Celebration of Surviving,” by Chuck Miller
when senselessness has pounded you around on the ropes and you’re getting too old to hold out for the future no work and running out of money, and then you make a try after something that you know you won’t get and this long shot comes through on the stretch in a photo finish of your heart’s trepidation then for a while even when the chill factor of these prairie winters puts it at fifty below you’re warm and have that old feeling of being a comer, though belated in the crazy game of life
standing in the winter night emptying the garbage and looking at the stars you realize that although the odds are fantastically against you when that single January shooting star flung its wad in the maw of night it was yours and though the years are edged with crime and squalor that second wind, or twenty-third is coming strong and for a time perhaps a very short time one lives as though in a golden envelope of light