
Imagine yourself at the pound in the twentieth century. Hundreds of dogs and cats sit in cages waiting to be adopted. This is not a no-kill shelter: this large city, known to truckers as The Big Dirty, is basic in its approach to unwanted animals. You walk past rows of cages. The dogs and cats are frantic, terrified, bewildered, listless, or have given up. They whimper or wag their tails. They bark or meow. They stick their paws through the wire. They can smell death; they can smell the euthanized animals burning in the incinerator behind the building.
I try not to think about the incinerators, about the animals smelling burning flesh. The incinerators are monitored by the EPA and state air pollution agencies, because they generate toxic emissions, as do the incinerators at human crematories. Bodies are mostly water, but the gas-fueled incinerators emit carbon monoxide, sulfur dioxide, and oxide nitrogen.
An anxious employee told me a horror story that haunts me. She was traumatized and going mad, or she wouldn’t have told a stranger. Someone had dropped off a litter of kittens stuffed in a paper sack. These poor terrified mutilated kittens had to be euthanized. I gave her a pack of kleenex from my purse.
I took a deep breath. I did not share the sad story with my husband, because this was supposed to be a happy day.
And at that moment, a tiny black-and-white kitten demanded our attention. She climbed up the wire cage door, stuck to it with her claws, and meowed plaintively.
She was the one.
We called her Starbuck. She relaxed as soon as we left the building. She purred in my lap in the car. A car was a better living space than a cage. And soon we were at home. Wow, she loved running around that space.
Starbuck was so small that she had to be fed tiny morsels by hand for the first few weeks. When she caught a cold, I sat with her in the bathroom and ran the shower so the steam would clear up her sinuses. And perhaps because I gave her so much attention, she became not only a good friend to cats and humans but a social worker and feline rights activist.
A few years later, we adopted a kitten named Louisa May. Starbuck washed her, cuddled with her, and taught her how to use the litter box.
Starbuck and Louisa May were inseparable. One of their favorite activities was breaking into the attic. They would claw at the carpet under the door for hours, having figured out by kitty engineering or instinct that the door might open if they dug their claws in the right spot for long enough. One day I found the door open and the two cats happily burrowing in boxes of books. Louisa May left tiny claw tears on the cover of a Willa Cather book. I was so impressed with their break-in that I couldn’t stop laughing.
Starbuck also became a social worker. When our oldest cat, Martian, who really was ancient, began to spend most of her time dozing in the Barcalounger, she was bullied at meals. Emma was a feline rights activist: she escorted Martian to the food bowls and batted away the bully while Martian ate.
Nowadays, in our small city, a no-kill shelter seems to have taken over the work of the pound. And what a good thing that is! We loved our cats from the pound, but I am so happy that the animals now have a better chance of finding a good home. There are many adult rescue cats, as well as kittens. And the adult cats often are “buddy cats,” who come from the same home and cannot be separated.
An automatic family!

Kat, this is a beautiful post and I enjoyed it thoroughly. But most of all I loved that it led me to your post about Helen. My husband Peter (a poet, who died last January) and I adopted a litter of three kitten sisters out of the cat shelter 15 years ago. He had the naming of them, and he chose the names of three of his favorite poets: Pindar, Catullus, and MARTIAL! Of course, they turned out to be girls, and the names changed over the years to Pindy, Tully, and Marshy. Pindar was Peter’s own particular cat, his clever, wise and beautiful senior wife. Tully was and still is my son Paul’s darling (“my most successful relationship” he calls her), and fat sweet Marshy is my very own baby. Peter wrote epigrams, too, but if Martial Cat-Birchall (as she is known at the vet) ever has, we don’t know it; she is a cat of few words, but many squeaks and trills, as torties often are. Some of Peter’s poems are collected in his book Nature, Nonsense, and Foreign Parts, but he has a lifetime of poetry left for me to collect and get some of the best into book form – and this will include epigrams. I’d like to show you a picture of the Three, but don’t see how to upload one here; however, I can direct you to my blog (if I may), lightbrightandsparkling.blogspot.com The second post is all about my Peter, and shows him with his lovely Pindar. Thanks for reading, and I’m sorry to hear about your loss of your dear Starbuck – but so glad to know that she had a long cat life of eighteen happy years with you! My three turn 16 in July, they comforted Peter all through his illness and me in my widowhood, and I hope they reach a venerable 18, too.
Diana, we loved Helen so much! I am fascinated by your witty descriptions of cats. Your husband certainly had a way with naming: I especially like Catullus as a name for a cat! I cana just hear the receptionist calling the vet through the P.A. system: “Doctor X, Martial Cat-Birchall is here to see you.” And I am very sorry to hear of Peter’s death. Thank goodness for the comfort of cats! And I will visit your blog immediately and bookmark it.
Yes come May if Laura doesn’t help me (and I doubt she will after all) I will find our local rescue shelter and
adopt a cat. I will pick in the way you did — as I picked Clarycat when a tiny baby. It was she who was so
eager to make contact with someone who would comfort her. I hadn’t thought of the smell. How horrible.
How cruel human beings are .
Yes, sometimes you know the cat is for you.! Clary was such a special cat,. Sometimes I absent-mindedly call one of the cats “Chloe.” They are surprised indeed. You will meet another special cat if and when you are ready, but Clary was unique.
Thank you.